Time for reflection

This week we made the trip to the NSW Southern Highlands to farewell Trev's pop. It was a sad journey, as probably expected, but strangely enough i was also struck with a few unexpected emotions. As we flew into Sydney i started to feel really down and realised it is the first time in my life that i havent felt like i was coming home. I guess that means i am settling in to my gold coast life but i was still really sad that Sydney wasn't my home any more. Then as we drove down the motorway i saw signs for Canberra and i just wanted to keep driving and see our good friends we haven't seen in ages. So by the time we got there i was in a pretty bad mood, but luckily that didn't last too long as Trev's family are so loving and happy to see us, even in these circumstances, that it is easy to forget every thing and just enjoy the hugs, the beer and the backyard cricket.

The actual funeral was as good as it could be. The service was really nice and gave us some quiet time to remember Ron and what he meant to his family. It was sad to see his nan though. Last time we were all together was to celebrate her 80th birthday and their 60th wedding anniversary. That still just blows my mind, 60 years happily married...... i hope im that lucky.

and i hope this isn't selfish, given i was there to reflect on Trev's pop's life, but i also found myself thinking about my own life... what will people say about me at my funeral, am i living my life how i want to be remembered for .... all kinds of things went around in my head. It also made me resolve to tell the people around me how much they mean to me more, it really is something that can never be said too many times.

One thing i wish i had of told Ron was the impact he had on me, he showed me just how a grandfather should be, so happy to see his grandchildren and a loving part of large but close family. He was a good man and im sure he will be sorely missed.

Then after all this emotion it was time for some happiness..... krispy kremes and coming home to see Kel and her mum.

Ahhh.... the circle of life.